i was in a good mood… but in a ton of pain when I woke up. Stiff and sore. Even my knee is hurting today. I dont know, nothings seemed to help.

Physical therapy yesterday was hard. Left hip is hurting and Sharon sent me over the roof in pain. The shot is wearing off, I can tell.  Dr R said I was hunched forward, but knew it was the weather… I then had PT which was hard. I mean it shouldnt hurt to have your therapist rub the base of your neck. I guess it was more than Icould handle.  Right now pain is just that.. and its like a knife.

The random pains in the middle of my head are getting more random, but the popping and pain from moving my neck up and to the side at thee same time has got to stop. Last night I was laying in bed and looked up at Doug and there it was… pain.  I had to take another pill. Im trying to NOT take them other than at night and with PT, but I cant get through the night it seems.

I also tried the stim machine on my neck, and It felt weird, but I was able to work today without problems, so thats actually better?  I accomplished work. Even with all the kids home.

Sweeping the floor was too much twisting, but I was able to vacuum without problems. I only did the area rug, the rest of the floors are hardwood.  I was up late last night working on real work too, and got a mock up done. So half good and half bad? I dont know where I am honestly. I know I am tired, i know I am stressed.. but Im scared of the pain coming back in my head more often so I dont do anything that could hurt me in anyway.  I sit up at the computer, I work to keep my posture up and bring my neck back. I even bought a roll pillow so I can work on that more. I just wish I could know I was safe I suppose.. confidence is not something I have.. Pain is something I do.